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Wednesday, February 6, 2008

HER :

missing school today ,
i was bored at home rotting .
i missed my baby
& he's so dependent on me alrights ?
when i call to check if he's awake ,
ready for work ,
GUESS what ? he's still sweetly alsleep .
Gosh , i felt so proud yet stupid to trust that
he'll wake up without me !
i woke him up or he'll be late for work .
& i must have been LOVED BIG TIME !
was sort of helping for new year which is like tomorrow ?
2008 simply has no CNY mood for me.
well , it's equvalent to a normal school holiday ?!
i hope after thursday ,
everything's up to the standard of past few years ?
Having a fun , wonderful
& hilarous time with cousins & friends .
was initally invited to renuion dinner by 'mother'
but wasnt allowed to join as mum disapproved .
whys wasnt he being accepted yet ?
so fustrating .
i believe this few days i've been implusive
& exaggrating towards Baby !
apologies for that &
i sincerely care about you ~
B you know , ah por was being dumb just now ?
she asked if you could come over to Bishan
tomorrow for dinner or something .
whether she's on purpose or not ,
i sort of apprciate her thought ?.
unlike mum who's like so ... !
what's wrong with my Baby ?
he's just partially few year older
& why carnt 'you' see the picture
that it's me being with him & not 'you' ?
i u/s that you are worried about my future
but i've given 'you' time enough to
like reconsider about this relationship ?
but 'you' didnt once tried ,
you just insisted that you're always right
& likewise i'm forever in the wrong !
because of 'you' , i tried being a good daughter
because of 'you' , i tried to listen to your words of [wisdom?]
because of 'you' , i learn to respect your thinking & rights .
But 'you' ? 'you' didnt ever tried , to
respect me , listen to me , think about my feelings
& much less to care !
i wondered whys i'm leading such a life .
an adnormal teenager's life.
i wanted to hate 'you' but i couldn't ,
i CARNT made myself do it .
Life's such a misery , i ever thought of ending it .
if it's not 'you' to born me with this less courage ,
i wouldnt have today .
So should i thank you or hate you for everything ?
well , mayb
SACRIFICES are really needed for some 'wanted results' ?
it's just perhaps sacrifices i made are far
too much for my 'result ' .
i hope we could meet for even a while today
or even tomorrow ?
i want to love my life i'm leading ,
but can i ?

well , just went to SANDY'S blog

& i want to announce that :

Sandy , your entries has never fail to bring a smile on my face .

thanks a million ~

even though you might not be reading all this bullshit ,

it's something i want you to be proud of !

i realised hmphss ..

despite crapping this much ,

i've written a super long post which only

consists of alphbets & symbols !

proudly , i want to say :

I Am Delighted !