My mum send my ah ma to the hospital 3 days ago. My ah ma's face turn yellowish. But she's alright now. might need operation. She's 81 yrs old. i love ahma dearly. Hope she'll be fine. I'm dying. I hate this feeling. Everything feels so sucky. I don't understand why. Is it so difficult to just work hard? not even for me? $$$$. I earn it but i don't see it. When? I should have face up to reality earlier. It's all lies. Nothing is true. It's all empty. Life sucks. & Maybe you were right. He's my source of stress. I hope the Sweetie was me. But i knew it wasn't. Everything's just not for me. No one remembers even you don't. If you care, you should know. I'm no longer look forward to that day. i want to spent the day alone. maybe at work i might feel better cause i'm alone. what friends i have. How blessed everyone is. They spent like nobody's business. They're never penniless. They get what they want& use all they have. How i envy. All that you couldn't give. You don't have to do it if it's so tough. Anyway i know it'll stop after a while. I'm used to you always being like that. One can never change another. I believe it now.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
