go think about it. who was the one who say okay when i asked her to confirm with me wed/thurs? you. you said okay. but end up? you choose to assume that i'm not interested and won't be going. did i say so?
Even that day in msn, you asked me to add you in my new acc. did you even bother to tell me the date & ask me if i'll be going? you didn't.
i didn't wanna reply jing because i was waiting for YOU to be the one the confirm with me. but you didn't even bother. that was why i wrote: "since you don't even bother to text me and confirm the date and time, why should i take the effort to make my presence" isn't it true? you don't bother~
& ya, one thing you guys do not know is that, this is what i told chun: ' if maine bother to confirm with me the date and time, i'll go no matter how much i don't feel like to, cause i know i'll be ps. if she don't even bother to do so, i'll not go. '
This is why i didn't show interest when jing asked me. because i already know what a friend i mean to you. that you don't even bother to send a sms to me. No matter how much you think i will not go, shouldn't you still make the effort to confirm with me the date and time? such a simple thing, is it so difficult?
Aren't i being treated unimportant-ly by you? Aren't you being selfish to input a negative thinking of mine that i nv even say so, into your brain?
maybe i should have just told you guys what i told chun: ' if maine bother to confirm with me the date and time, i'll go no matter how much i don't feel like to, cause i know i'll be ps. if she don't even bother to do so, i'll not go. ' but now it's obvious that when i didn't state so, this is how i'm being treated- neglected.
think about the taka incident. do you guys exactly know why i behave in such way that day? you guys don't. that is why things like what is happening now, happened again. I was being neglected again. plus one thing i was really mad on that day was that. i really hate it to see things unplanned. that day was supposed to be us doing our project but how did you guys behave like? totally a 'girlfriends' outing? -.-" everything was not planned.
this is how 'bonded' we, 'girlfriends' are. i didn't bring this up in the first place because i thought that after that incident, our friendship will get better. but i was totally wrong!& kinda stupid to think that way. Leopards never change their spots!
That is why now, i choose to say things out. if not will you guys ever realise the presence of this problem? you guys will never know. maybe it's a phobia, maybe it's just true- Whenever we go out tgt, the 6 of us, this will always happen to me.
About chun and i going to jp without telling you ppl, did you guys ask us out when you all went back to school & to vivo after that? answer is no. we were kept in the dark until you blogged. which pot is calling the kettle black?! Besides, we went there just to get chun's psp pouch. & to buy back my dinner. do we have the need to tell you guys? will you all still go? Furthermore, it was a last minute decision that i'm going. By the time we tell you guys, when will we get the reply?
But you guys didn't tell us about going back to sch and then to vivo. Who's in the wrong/ rather who's at fault in the first place that led to what is happening now?
& one more thing, do you guys know how angry and upset chun was when she know about all these outings without her?! The worst thing is that she wasn't even asked for ANY of the outings! just go imagine how important you ppl treat us. do you all know how she felt??
Whatever i've type above is just saying things in my stand. Maybe you guys have your reasons, but enough is enough..
Going to be real busy from today onwards!! happy issue?
Monday, March 23, 2009
